Marked

As the sun burnt down in flames
The sky went dark with ashes shining
My soul wandered for a story
And with hushed steps and a warning
I was sucked into her nightmare

Strong and bold at first she was
Armour of glittering eyes and cheeks of autumn
The red wind carried the spirits
Pushing her to corners of the circle life
The red sang and howled
She danced and ran

Kissing her with their ideas
Swallowing her in thoughts
Drinking the happiness out of her
Left hungry only with her worries
Tortured with the sound of laughter
 She cried in a treacherous world

With the morning gone was any trace
Hiding everything beneath her smile
Pretending it to be a blissful day dream
In her terrorising reality.

Yours.

As I pick you in arms,
The smell of yours touches me,
Your texture so delicate,
You stay for hours with me,
Too captivated by you,
Putting you down is intense for me,
I knew your name in the beginning,
But now you spend days and nights with me,
I slipped in your world fearlessly,
Now your world is a part of me,
You showed me your scarred soul,
And your story remains forever with me,
What I experienced with you,
Is a spell I crave within me,
As I put down you carefully,
It feels as though I lost a part of me,
Even though I pick others,
You're never offended by me,
As I share you with others,
They become you and me.

Come Back.

We were the leaves of the same tree,
We fell we flew we sung together,
But the wind flew you alone one day,
Watched the colours of flame rise and fall,
Counting days for your comeback,
The world was endless so was the hope,
Long afternoons the way we sat,
Said nothing but spoke a lot,
Saw the greens bloom and shine,
With their passion till they died,
Heard the sky cry with me,
Stranded  here with a cling of hope,
Too afraid to let the hands go,
For your search.

The Beginning.

Is the clock ticking,
Or do I feel so,
Everything now seems to be tranquil,
I hear my heart beat to the ticking,
All I know is that,
My fingers are fighting to come out,
Something within me feels alive now,
I want to come out,
And look into her eyes,
But the love holds me back,
I don't know,
If I'm going to have it later,
I can feel the love and warmth for me,
Given her who takes care of me,
I was just a  piece,
Growing for months,
Who strokes her hand affection,
Come right into me,
Even after a barrier within us,
I wander in black for days,
Listening to songs she sings,
The words she says,
Imprint in my mind,
Her voice helps me grow,
The belonging of me,
Makes me happy,
I suddenly feel the,
Cold air hitting me,
The love I grew in,
Feels empty now,
I listen to  my cries,
And tears run down,
I'm out now looking around,
Searching the eyes to pacify,
Someone takes in,
The emptiness starts fill in,
Catching her eyes with pain,
Who gave me birth.

Remember the Time.

I remember the last time,
I was here,all excited and nervous,
As that was the first time,
I was ever going to be awarded for my writing,
For all I ever wanted was just moments of honour.

I remember the first time,
Picking the pen to lead my thoughts,
To a new dimension of mine,
Sometimes they lead with glee,
 But at times they didn't turn into words,
Difficult to understand what these thoughts meant.

I still remember the first time,
I ever went on a stage,
To accept my glory,honour,
My fingers reaching out to hold,
Back then I thought it out of my reach,
But then it was never,I am giving my thank.

I remember that time,
When we say together,
Talking about our beautifully crafted future,
Oh! Brother you said you,
You wanted a day under your name,
But that big is what I didn't want.

I know this is my last time,
For me to receive my award,
This is what I always dreaded,
The era of mine now comes to an end,
All of these feelings are overwhelming,
This is the last time I put them in words,
The last time.

Together with each other

Oh dear I wait ,
Standing here under ,
This tense moonlight,
For the chance I have been,
Waiting for all this time,
The chance to apologise,
For all our unsettling things,
But I guess it was too late,
Cause you never came for it ,
But I am never going to let it go,
I still remember the days,
We were together,
Smiling with each other,
Where we used to wait,
When the sun used to reach out,
With his arms full of warm ness,
And I still wish we were together,
So that we could make new memories with each other.

Once upon a time .

Once upon a time,
I waited for my turn,
To have a talk with you,
Because the last time we had,
You were mine forever,
But that's now long gone,
Where I had hoped that,
You would have forgiven me,
That Tuesday night,
Holding each other's hand,
But now I know it was good,
That you had never forgiven me,
Because I had never deserved it,
It was you who had let,
Others down only for yourself,
Only for your good,
I had never thought we,
Would end up like this,
Because I felt so lonely,
When you rejected it,
But I guess I like it this way,
Or otherwise we would be scared,
Just because of you and make,
Me feel guilty all throughout our lives,

The fear

I wonder if the fear,
Is still on people's mind,
The fear of the night,
The night of strong winds that,
Left everything reckless,
I wish I could do something,
I wish I could know that the fear is still,
Lurking around and killing peoples mind,
The spark of courage goes down,
With a desperate shout of help,
And all I wait here is for,
The fear to kill my mind,
Will I become a fear to the people,
That's not what I know,
But I think the only choice,
Left for me is to,
Fight the fear at my doors,
Till then I think ,
what my fear would be like,
If my spark of courage,
Would be strong enough to fight it.

Rakhi

India the country of festivities has a numerous, colorful and joyful festivals, one of them is Rakhi .The festival of Rakhi celebrates the brother sister relationship. The relationship of sisterhood and brotherhood can only be understood the joy of having a sister or a brother.

The day of Rakhi has a unique place in the Hindu religion. The commitment of love, care and support for each other is always done on the day of celebration. The sister ties a sacred thread or commonly known as Rakhi on the wrist of their brothers for their protection and well-being, and the brothers promise the same in return with a special gift for their sisters.

The celebration of Rakhi isn’t only limited to the celebration of tying a Rakhi .But it is about staying with each other in their good and bad times. The thought of just having some support can bring wonders to a person.

So, Happy Rakhi to all of you, and hope you all have a great year ahead. And I thank all my brothers for their support and love.

The Dilemma of Mine.

My hands shiver,
The cold breeze leaves my hands numb,
Even though I am used to it, 
I can't pick up the gun,
It just doesn't feel right,
All my childhood I was taught against it,
I was taught about the ones who where against it,
And now I just stand and stare,
At the ground of battle ,
With both sides prepared with their arms,
Tears fill my eyes,
I wasn't prepared for it,
But this is what i had chosen,
To fight for my country,
I would have never believed,
That I would be a part of a revolutionary war,
And then the pictures of my mother,
Comes into my mind but it is blurred,
Because it's been while since I had seen her ,
And now I didn't even know what she looked like,
But then her voice booms into my head,
She said , "My child never be afraid of the future ."
But I guess it is never been like that in life,
What we are always afraid of, is our future,
And I think we should be,
The time has finally come,
That we raise our arms for our own good,
For our own future we have always been afraid of,
So, I bravely  pick up my gun,
And join the lines of my land,
And then at the crack of dawn,
All I can hear is people commanding each other,
To fire and kill each other with out any mercy,
After a long time the battle ends,
And all I can see through my watery eyes,
Is people crying for each other,
And the smell of  blood,
Joins with us in the victory celebration,
And then I realize that I shot people,
I didn't even know,
I had spoiled their families,
And I didn't even have a count of how many I had killed,
I throw myself to the ground,
Because I know that I am myself a evil within me,
And I ,myself will be the cause of my nightmares.

You're The One .

You’re the one,
Who makes my life much more fun,
Your presence,
Brings a smile across my face,
You were a stranger to me a few days ago, 
But now I can’t imagine,
What my life would have been without you,  
You’re the one, 
Who understands everything just by my looks,
You’re the one, 
Who cry's with me, 
You’re the one,
Who laugh's with me,
You’re the one, 
Who gives me warmth ,
In cold, dark nights,                                                                    
You’re the one, 
I love being around,
You’re the one, 
Who grows within me,
You’re the one, 
Who will be with me all my life, 
You’re the one ,
I belong with,
You’re the one, 
I can’t give away, 
Because you’re my, 
Wonderful friend .

The New Start

Why has the time stopped,
 Or do I feel so,
 Everything was in such a rush a few moments ago,
 My breath was heavy and my heart beat was killing me,
And all I know is that,
My eyes are wide awake,
And all I can see,
Is people with watery eyes,
Something within me feel missing,
I just can't figure out what it is,
I feel myself moving up,
That could only mean ,
That I am flying,
Towards nothing ,
Which is pitch black,
I wander my eyes,
Here and there,
In hope of someone,
And then my eyes fall on something ,
My eyes take time to adjust,
And then I realize,
I am looking at a pair eyes,
With no particular body,
Its just shining,
Which  is the only thing I can  see up here,
I try walking towards him,
But I feel something stopping me,
Then I realize that he was the one,
I had heard about ,
That he was the one everyone feared about.
I sense my self walking towards him ,
But then something goes wrong,
I loose control and start falling down,
From where I had come,
I reach ground with a thud,
I hear the sobs again,
And then the truth hits me,
That I am no more alive,
On the world of greed,
And it was time that I bid them a good bye ,
Because the goal of mine had been  achieved ,
Because the  role l of mine had been played,
And my time now is with him in his world,
I wonder what it would be like,
I wonder what I will play over there
I wonder what I would do after my role has been played over there.
I just stare at the walls with a grin on my face,
Wondering about the happiness of death,
With the time now gone ,
I wait for a new start .
 



 

The Times of My Time

The past was unforgettable,

Which always gives me sleepless nights,

I tried to change my future in the past,

Which brought me here,

The present is unpredictable,

Which has been scarred form my past,

I still wonder what would have happened,

If I made the other choices in the past,

I think I made the wrong acquisitions to ,

The one I truly loved,

I still fear the future,

Due to my past because,

There are several questions,

Still unanswered,

Which I know but don’t feel,

Like answering,

I imagine my life would have been,

A lot more different,

If I wouldn’t have thought,

Of my future in my past,

I wish I could go back and,

Live my past to the fullest,

And make a few changes,

To bring back the ones I loved,

In my near future,

My past was never mine,

My present is still not me,

But I wish the future to mine,

With the one whom I accused.

Long Time

It’s been a long time since I have posted anything. I was busy finishing my projects and assignments because of which I wasn’t able to make out anytime for blogging. My exams just got over last week which was truly a sign of relief.

I am one of those people who love reading a book and few of my favorites are THE HARRY POTTER series, THE HUNGER GAMES trilogy .The Hunger Games series also inspired me to write a poem which I am publishing so that you all can have a look at it. And hope you all like it.And to all of those who don’t know what Hunger games is, do read the books or watch the movie.